“I see myself lost in a dark forest. Fallen withered leaves are all over the ground, making the trees looked so lifeless. I can’t fathom the right way out for darkness consumed most of this place and the moonlight is the only thing I can call as my company. I tried to search for signs of life but I can’t even hear a single sound. The silence was deafening, I think it’s starting to drive me crazy. Like I can hear someone calling out my name sometimes but I don’t see anyone coming for me. I guess I had already lost it. This forest has taken the sanity I have left.
As my back was leaning on a tree with my body full of scars and blood from trying my best to survive everyday, a thought came into my mind. Maybe I haven’t lost it, yet? Maybe someone out there is really calling for me but I was just the one who was too scared to take a step, to get disappointed, to fight in the darkness again, to leave this place where I was abandoned. By him. He left me here all alone without looking back and didn’t bother to remind himself that he loved me as much I loved him even just for once in his life. He left me here like I never mattered. He left for a long time and never came back. He was the only one who knew where I was but I never heard his voice calling or even saw his shadow coming for me.
I wanted to leave this forest. I wanted to fight my way out and follow those voices calling out for me. I wanted to be brave enough. Take risks again. Even if I get wounded all over. And I tried for so many times. But when everytime I follow the voices, they suddenly disappear and I was left alone. With no right directions. No help. Was there really someone calling out for me? I was wounded from searching and fighting in the darkness. All I have left was disappointment and shattered hopes. I was abandoned and I don’t know how many times I’ve been anymore.
I keep on coming back to this one spot where it all started. The place that tore me to pieces. The place where my nightmares are born. The place where he left me. I’ve realized that I also chose to stay because I grew so scared and I guess it’s better to be one because sometimes, being brave can lead you to your own tragedy. This is the place where I lost and I’ve accepted it. Misery has taken over this forest and I can never see myself more in any other way. I guess I was meant to be left here, where no one will destroy my hopes again because it’s already gone. No one can hurt me and just by thinking of that, I knew I was already safe. And so, I went back to that first thought that came to me earlier. Maybe I did lost it. My sanity is gone. It’s okay, I don’t have to fight for it anyway. Because I don’t have anything left in me anymore to fight for.”
— M. // the place where you left me is the safest i’ve ever been
I have lived many ages of men, Steven. Centuries without end. I have seen many great men, and known countless honors. But the greatest honor of this ancient and tired soul has been the privilege of fighting beside you, and calling you my friend.
What’s sad about this is the government isn’t taking into account what these families go through!It might’ve only been 2 months but he is physically disengaged with his dad,does not know what is happening,why it’s happening, and he’ll be stuck with those feelings/memories forever!
Shits so fucked man. That poor baby. I’m literally sick.
I want everyone to read this:
The last names Che, Pop and Coc are indigenous and these people are indigenous to the Americas. FUCK your nation states and borders. They have every right to move across this continent. The colonists have been pulling this bullshit on indigenous people for more than half a millennia already. Enough. This broken child they finally returned to his dad? The last in a long long line, victim of just the latest administration.
